very nearly 13 weeks

doesn't time fly when your having fun !

well all in all I am feeling great , I am so relaxed about this pregnancy now . we are past the dreaded 12 week mark and ourour oscar test came back great the risk of this baby being downs is around 1 in 4500. thats good enough odds for me .

It was a wonderful day , though the scanner wasn't as friendly as the last one we had. I guess he had a more serious job to do . we got to see the baby looking very baby like were able to count all the fingers on one hadn at one point . Eve was a complete wreck and stef was in tears and I was just enjoying the moment .

I don't think I will ever be able to fully comprehend what I am giving them , It doesn't seem possible that little old me can fulfill someones wildest dreams , i mean I am a teenage mum , who doesn't work and lives on a council estate , how likely is it that i would ever be able to do something so amazing for someone. Surrogacy is definatly doing wonders for my self esteem I feel great about myself as a person at the moment and thats a fantastic feeling.

I recieved a lovely card from E's mum ( uckily E had translated it for me) telling me how grateful she is and thanking me for helping them and wishing me an easy pregnancy . It bought a tear to my eye and is definatly someting for the memory box .

as for me , morning sickness never really got too bad and is almost gone now , I still don't want to cook but i will force myself to get over that too. the bump is very in evidence now and i am in maternity clothes !!!!

I had a terrible moment on monday morning when I went to put on a pair of trousers I had been wearing just 5 days before and they wouldn't reach to do up .... and i don't mean just wouldn't reach there was a good 2 inch gap !!! where the heck did that come from .. I don't know

so steve and I went quickly into town and bought me a pair of maternity trousers to get me through the day, since then I have hit dorothy perkins and picked up a few nice vest tops in the sale , mothercare for some jeans ( that are gettng returned becasue I don't like the fit) and good old ebay where i got a pair of brand new gap jeans with tags still attached for just £7.50 and I am living in those right now LOL we are going to Bath on sunday to visit a few more stores with good maternity ranges hey at least I'll get good use out of them !

We heard some fab news this week , one SUK couple who had been told they could never have children announced that they are 16 weeks pregnant , I just little stories of miracles like this and wish them the best of luck , lots of good health and of course oodles of happiness in their future.