35 weeks , the end draws nearer

obviuly at this point I am starting to think about life after surrogacy and its made me reflect on how much surrogacy has affected my life over the last two years. It has enhanced it in someways , I have more people I would call freinds now than ever before , I have this huge sense of acheivement that i get t carry with me every day , and I have more confidence now than 2 years ago .

On the down side though i seem to have lost a little of me along the way , I used to scrapbook but haven' done any for some months now , I used to go to a crop but now all Steve's weekends off are taken up with surrogacy stuff without even checking to see if there is a crop running .

I used to bake homemade goodies for my kids , I haven't done that in months either . Today I made a Victoria sponge and it felt good to be doing something I enjoy and for my family.

Its Finns 4th birthday Tuesday and I wasn't going to throw him a birthday party because its a lot of work wile this far pregnant , I felt so bad about it that I am now throwing him a Small birthday tea party for him and 5 Friends. It will probably kill me but i have to do it. I would never forgive myself if i didn't .

My sex life has suffered too , I must be a really odd thing for my hubby to deal with , me being pregnant with another mans baby , its hard enough for me carrying someone Else's baby , not to mention the spd and the fact its uncomfortable to part my knees.

all in all I guess there is a big part of me that can't wait for this to end and get get myself, the whole me , back to normal.

34 weeks wow its been a long time

Firstly let me appologise for my absence , luckily my spd cleared up after some acupuncture so i have been busy jusy living ife and enjoying being able to move again.





whats been happening surrogacy wise , well we had a 3d scan whch was fantastic , we suprise E she didn't have a clue until we turned up on her doorstep one sunday lunch time. It was amazing and their baby is a cutie , It looks a little like finn when he was born but with subtle differences.

E's parents have been visitng so we haven't done much socialising , it has been great to meet the grandparents and see their excitement too.

we had a lovelly family christmas despite me feeling very pregnant , the bump is expanding at an alarmng rate and even some maternity clothes are starting to get a bit small btu I'm not buying any new ones at this late stage.

I am starting to think about the birth I'm not worried about it as such just have a few little things on my mind , I hope stef and eve make it in time ( i am sure they will) I hope the hospital give us our wishes, I am worried that if we ave to stay in for any length of time that because I am the legal mother they might not let Eve stay to take care of the baby . we have our meeting with the midwife on the 25Th to discuss our birth plan so hopefully i can talk all this through with her. I might even mention it to my consultant at our appointment tomorrow .

as for me and my health I was doing really well but just in this last week I have been feeling anemic , and my spd has reared its ugly head again . not terribly but enough to restrict my movement and make life difficult . I am starting t get to that point where I wish it was over already . this week has dragged more than the last 10 I think. I have started thinking and planning for my sisters wedding in May to try and make the time move faster whilst at the same time wondering what on earth i am going to do when this is over ..... 2 years of devoting my life to surrogacy and in a short ( i hope) 6 weeks it will be over. that feels very strange !!