obviuly at this point I am starting to think about life after surrogacy and its made me reflect on how much surrogacy has affected my life over the last two years. It has enhanced it in someways , I have more people I would call freinds now than ever before , I have this huge sense of acheivement that i get t carry with me every day , and I have more confidence now than 2 years ago .
On the down side though i seem to have lost a little of me along the way , I used to scrapbook but haven' done any for some months now , I used to go to a crop but now all Steve's weekends off are taken up with surrogacy stuff without even checking to see if there is a crop running .
I used to bake homemade goodies for my kids , I haven't done that in months either . Today I made a Victoria sponge and it felt good to be doing something I enjoy and for my family.
Its Finns 4th birthday Tuesday and I wasn't going to throw him a birthday party because its a lot of work wile this far pregnant , I felt so bad about it that I am now throwing him a Small birthday tea party for him and 5 Friends. It will probably kill me but i have to do it. I would never forgive myself if i didn't .
My sex life has suffered too , I must be a really odd thing for my hubby to deal with , me being pregnant with another mans baby , its hard enough for me carrying someone Else's baby , not to mention the spd and the fact its uncomfortable to part my knees.
all in all I guess there is a big part of me that can't wait for this to end and get get myself, the whole me , back to normal.
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the end is drawing closer...my thoughts are with you - hope everything goes well
Sallyxxx
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